The high priestess and channeling life force energy

The spiritually gifted woman, when she is unaware of her power and sensitivity, may channel her energy into trying to fit molds she does not belong to. This usually originates from the problematisation of the gifted woman. At one point, people may have critiqued you and urged you to be more like them. Your way of living, your sensitivity have been problematized to the extent where your entire essence seemed offensive to some.

When the highly sensitive woman experiences this and the outcasting that acompanies it, she may try to forsake her true nature. This is usually done as a survival mechanism- an attempt to not stand out too much as when she does, she is punished. Simultanoeosuly, the spiritually gifted women in her unawakened state may not have a base understanding of she is or know that she need not follow the rules of the pack. Out of fear and limited knowledge of self, she tries to conform.

Her life force energy, which is the infinite source of creative energy the spiritually gifted woman has may now be chanelled into frivalous and limiting pursuits. The purpose of our life force energy is to authentically create, pulling from our rich inner world and realms the spiritually gifted woman naturally has access to. It consists of our unique energetic imprint which infuses our work and touches those who come in contact with our creations.

The Priestess, when she is trying to conform to social ideals, at best is like a dog chasing its own tail. She may feel compelled to entangle herself in fleeting, unhealthy relationships or try to attain a similar kind of popularity of the neurotypical woman who bullied her. Channelling her life-force into these meaningless pursuits may superficially give her the outcome she desires, but only for a short time. This will never be a fulfilling pursuit for the priestess who desires wild freedom; the freedom to express herself in any way she wishes, to express her magic, and to break free from the chains that sought to hold her back.

The intersection of personal trauma and social expectations may keep the Priestess in a constant push and pull. On one hand, she somatically remembers what it's like to be left out and punished for being herself, on the other hand, her spirit is screaming to be let of the cage of illusions she has been trapped in. The heaviness of intimate trauma alongside social expectations is what creates a fixation on harmful pursuits I have seen many gifted women play out. The constant need for male validation that manifests as countless, pointless relationships with men, the 'need' to be seen as neurotypical eneough which can manifest as competitive mean girl behaviour. The list goes on...

Here, the wounded priestess channels her life force energy chasing dopamine hits. She has been programmed to think that she alone is not enough, that she must be dependent on someone or something. On the contrary, Priestess women are some of the most mentally strong, independent, and successful female archetype that exists. Priestess women are gifted with all they need to survive and thrive. The task is to rid ourselves of the illusions and programming that taught us otherwise. This usually comes through in the forms of ego-deaths which allow us to know who we truly are outside of social conditioning and trauma. This is where we become aware of the unhealthy ways we have been channeling our life force energy and where we become intuitivley guided to the pursuits that we incarnated here for; self-mastery, spiritual development, deep embodiment of our power, clearing generational cycles...

When we learn to see through the illusions and channel our life force energy into beneficial pursuits, we learn what it's like to feel embodied within our unique power. We learn that we did not need the social norms, that our power, magentism, and intellect does not need approval from anyone or anything. Our God-given assignment and our entire being is in a lane of its own and does not need approval nor does it need to be mainstream to yield immense power.

Some questions to reflect on...

• What kinds of thoughts and feelings arise when I think about being unapologetically myself?

• Where is most of my energy being directed to now and does this align with my visions and aspirations?

• In what ways am I holding myself back and what reasons am I making up to keep holding myself back?